Enegmatic Dichotomies!!!

I was alone, all alone, doing nothing. In a twinkle of an eye, I felt it travelling throughout my body, penetrating my digestive system, having grasp of me. I suffered and I tranced. I remembered everything and I forgot all the things. It was part and parcel of me; it was overruling me. Uncontrollably, my eyes smilingly shed some hot tears. I very hard tried to stop them, but my eyes disobeyed me. I wanted to forget all of it, yet I found myself
drowning bottomlessly in it. I thought I would be able to cross it out; instead I was unconsciously polishing it. I loved it, and I hated it. I wanted to do everything for it, but I was offering nothing. It was all my life. And now, it is no more.